Letter from T

Letter from T**** C******, May 11, 2010

used with permission

From: [address removed]
Date: May 11, 2010
To: <kerry@projectcamelotportal.com>
Subject: Peter Sterling Interview and Comments on Camelot

Kerry Cassidy,

Hola. Before I start the bulk of this letter, I am going to tell you a little about myself. I am a 22 year old male from Washington state. I attended an arts based high school and have been interested in art for basically all my life. When I was about 16, I began experimenting with things like marijuana, mushrooms, and LSD. I had a lot of experiences that changed the way I looked at the world, or whatever. Typical of someone who does this kind of thing. By the way, I would NEVER do anything like this again, except for a little pot now and then, but no psychedelic substances. When I was 18, in my Junior year (old for a Junior, I know) my father informed me about something called Astral Projection, and I was skeptical, but intrigued by the whole concept. Before this I had an almost purely Atheistic, scientific, "nuts & bolts" view of reality. I started researching this and eventually was able to produce an OOBE. To cut a long story short, as an 18 year old kid, I realized in that experience that I had a lot of growing up to do before I took on the responsibility that comes along with dealing with these types of experiences. So I decided I would just work on out-of-body stuff in the sleep sate, instead of consciously doing this. But, with having this experience, I now knew that what is being put forth in the mainstream scientific establishment cannot possibly be an accurate representation of the way reality really works.

I began researching online to try and find some people who had information on more metaphysical views on reality. I didn't find ANYTHING worth mentioning for about 3 months, but I stuck with it. I also had reconnected with an old family member that knew quite a bit about some of this stuff, and was a clairvoyant, did "readings" for me, and it opened up some new doorways for me. As far as the internet research, I soon came across a website called "Divine Cosmos". It was the first site that I found where I felt that the information being presented in his online books, was, to a significant degree, pretty accurate. At least insofar as his scientific info. We have some differences in philosophy, but overall, I feel that his scientific work has a lot of very valuable info. This was all in my Junior year. To try and make this quick, throughout the rest of my time in High School, I was very into David's work, began reading Cayce readings, was researching Atlantis, hypnosis, practicing clairvoyance, etc. and basically stopped coming to school. I was only there about half the time; I guess I had better things to do…

After I got out of High School, I was still researching all on my own (VERY few people take me seriously). I was poking around online trying to find legitimate info on ET's. All I seemed to be able to find were these videos on youtube of supposed alien autopsy photos, and UFO's. Some of the stuff seemed like it might have been real, but most of it, I felt, was a bunch of bullshit. Then, I came across two videos online that I felt were FAR more legitimate than anything else I had seen. One was an interview done in like 1993 with this guy Alex Collier, interviewed by Rick Keefe. I'm sure you know exactly what interview I'm talking about. The other video that I felt was legitimate, was this interview on youtube with this guy Dan Burisch. With these interviews, I can now look at someone right in the eyes, read their expressions, mannerisms, energy, etc. and decide for myself if I think they are full of shit or not. I felt that they were both presenting what they felt was truthful information. Whether MJ-12 is being honest with Dan, and the Andromedans with Alex is a whole other subject of discussion. But anyway, I still went on researching and was enjoying it.

The summer that I started watching this stuff (2007) I came across a book by a guy named Daniel Pinchbeck. In some of his books, he mentions this powerful psychedelic form the Amazon called Ayahuasca. Now, I already had several experiences with mushrooms and LSD, as I mentioned, so I basically had this sort of "I can handle anything" type of attitude. I ended up finding an online supplier for ayahuasca, and I ordered some of this stuff. This was in October of 2007. So, I found a recipe for the tea online, and I brewed this stuff up. Now, I thought that this was going to be like mushrooms or mescaline or something… boy was I in for a big surprise! I had two trustworthy friends of mine "trip-sit" me while I did this. We went out to the middle of the woods where I started drinking this stuff. About twenty minutes after consumption, I threw up, and apparently most people do. Immediately, this stuff started kicking in. At this point, I was sitting there with my eyes open and experienced this sort of telepathic connection with ALL of the plant life surrounding me, and it was VERY intense. The visual experience was like, if you could imagine a blend between 3rd and 4th density. I was in the 3rd density still, but it had this "dream-like" quality to it. Now, since this substance does indeed open this sort of access to higher densities, something really wild happened pretty quickly, and I swear, I'm not making this up (I LOATHE people who make shit like this up). I had two or three beings, astral beings, appear behind me. Although they were non-physical beings, they appeared to be like astral reptilians, which kind of confused me because I had only heard of the physical ones through Collier. It scared the shit out me, Kerry. Seriously. What I was able to pick up off of them, is that basically they are very cold, ruthless, beings with an "I don't give a fuck about you" kind of attitude. My friends looked at me while this was going on (they didn't know these guys were behind me) and asked if I was alright. They said that I was very pale, and I looked like I was dead. Terrified, I said to them, "Get me the fuck out of here, NOW!" We walked back to their car, and I laid down in the back seat and closed my eyes to try and make all of this go away, but instead I had the experience of being propelled through a wormhole or something (kind of like on the show Stargate) and I ended up in a place that was totally white and VAST. There were four or five more alien like beings, who appeared to be waiting for me. These beings were more androgynous and seemed very friendly. They were certainly much nicer than the other bunch! So they appered to be apologizing to me for what had just happened to me, and appeared to be doing some kind of energetic work on my non-physical body. It was actually quite pleasant. It was like I was on a conveyor belt or something, moving, and these beings were working on me as I went by. If you could imagine having water poured on you face, but it moves through all the cells in your body and it feels like it's cleaning out all of the shit that has built up over the years. As they left, in the 3rd density we were just pulling up to the house I was staying in at the time. All that happened to me in the back seat of a Volkswagen Bug. Pretty funny huh?

So, as I'm stepping out of the car, I'm still in this higher plane, but I could still walk around, and a third and final entity appeared to me. This one was like a big energy being that didn't have a body, but it tried to identify itself to me as "Mahavishnu".

I was a little intrigued for a minute, but then I guess I kind of thought, " If you really are who you say you are, what the fuck are you talking to me for?" I just kind of ignored it, and walked inside, sat down by the fireplace, and basically had my own adventure that wasn't tainted by the presence of these entities, and my own personal adventure was FAR MORE FASCINATING than talking to some alien. I really can't describe it, because it is very difficult to translate experiences that take place in higher densities into words, and I'm sure you know exactly what I mean. But I will say that there was ONE thing that I felt very, very strongly during this experience, that does correlate, in a way, with the testimony of this Peter Sterling. It has to do with 2012. I felt that there was indeed some kind of transformation about to occur in 2012. I had already been reading Wilcock's material on 2012, and this was like validation to me, at the time. So after this experience ended, I just kind of stood up, and was like, "That was the craziest thing that has ever happened to me" and just kind of went on with my life. Also, as a side note, earlier in the summer I somehow got this e-mail form Divine Cosmos (I NEVER get e-mails from them; I'm not even quite sure how I got on their mailing list) saying that he had a new 3 1/2 hour interview, and of course I watched it and really enjoyed it.

So I go on with my life. One day, in December 2007 if I remember correctly, I'm over at my friend's house, and they are about to go somewhere, and I asked if I could stay at his house to use his computer. I checked the Divine Cosmos site and he has this link to a new interview called "Jumproom to Mars." So I start watching this interview and I see David sitting here in a restraunt with these two other people. I'm thinking, "Well, these are probably a couple friends of his." But then, I had recognized your voice as the woman who conducted the 3 1/2 hour interview, but I'm sitting here thinking, "Who the hell is this Australian guy?" I watched the interview and was totally blown away. This was the most amazing information I had ever heard, at the time. So then I noticed that this video was tagged "Project Camelot." So I went to the old Camelot site, and I start clicking on the interviews, and I found that interview with Dan Burisch again. Then it hit me. I had been watching your interviews for months, but I thought they were just random interviews on youtube, but it was like in my mind I heard, "This is Project Camelot. This is what we do." I VERY quickly realized that I had stumbled onto a very valuable source of information that had info on just about everything I wanted to know about, and even then your database was relatively small. I also soon realized that this "Australian Guy" was Bill Ryan, one of the co-founders of Project Camelot. And that he's not Australian at all, which I thought was kind of funny.

Over the next few years I kept up with your work, and even today I check your site almost daily. I have watched almost all of your interviews, many of them several times. I used to listen to them at work when my employers were out of town. I used to make handmade jewelry, so my employers would leave a lot to go do art shows. One of my favorite interviews was with John Lear, and ironically, I don't agree with a lot of what he says, but he's just such a character. It was also the interview that opened a whole new doorway for me. In the last 10 minutes or so in part 2 of the "John Lear Tells All" you guys mentioned a series of books called MATRIX. The way you guys were talking about it made it sound like something that was too far out of reach for me to ever get a hold of a MATRIX book. I eventually just said "Fuck it", why don't I search for Val Valerian on Amazon and see what pops up. I didn't want to search for MATRIX, because it's pretty damn obvious what is gonna pop up. I found some used copies of these books and I bought a copy of MATRIX IV, used for like $90. I didn't care though, I was thrilled to have even just one of these books. And besides, I wanted to see what was to special about this Val Valerian's info, that would cause John Lear to re-evaluate his position on "Planet X", just by the mention of his name and his books. The book came and it was a whopping 1080 pages, thicker than a phone book. I was living in an apartment with my mom at the time, and got my own place in the beginning of August 2008. By this time, I had found this website called "trufax" that apparently sold MATRIX books. So, when I got my next paycheck, I made like a $200 order and got all 3 volumes of MATRIX V, as well as a copy of MATRIX III, for a friend of mine who wanted one of the books.

The next day, I accidentally left my phone at home when I went to work that day. I got home, put some minutes on my phone, and was messing around on my computer. I had my dad drop me off a Photo Shop program earlier that day, and I was pulling pictures from the NASA archives into Photo Shop, and messing around to see if I could find anything. Loved the interview with Hoagland, by the way, which is where I got the idea to do this. As I'm sitting here doing this, my phone rings and it's from a restricted number. I got this really queasy feeling in my stomach, and I answered the phone. "Hello?" I said, somewhat nervously. "Hi, I'm calling to speak with " _______" says this deep voice on the other end of the phone. "This is him" I replied. He says, "This is Val Valerian from Leading Edge International Research Group, I received an order from you today for the MATRIX V Trilogy and MATRIX III Volume 1. Are you sure you don't want MATRIX VI instead of MATRIX III, it would go much better with the MATRIX V Trilogy." I replied, "No, actually the MATRIX III is for a buddy of mine." He says, "Well, are you sure you don't want Volume 2 of the MATRIX III set? It's much better. It's 5 bucks more, but I'll cover the difference." Nice guy, huh? I wasn't really sure what to do, because it was for a friend. So I told him I would think about it for a minute, but in the meantime I asked him if I could ask him a few questions. He says, "You got info?" And I'm sitting here like, "Uhhhh, no." So I explained to him how I found his books, through a John Lear interview, and how I found MATRIX IV on Amazon. When I mentioned MATRIX IV, he just burst out with laughter. He said that the stuff in MATRIX IV was all based on the "Flower of Life" material put forth by Drunvalo Melchizedek, and when they had started the MATRIX V project they realized it was all bullshit, so they removed MATRIX IV from publication. It was a matter of personal integrity, which I respect greatly. He said that there were some things in there that were "worth taking a look at" but ultimately MATRIX IV was a dead-end for anyone seriously trying to progress spiritually. We ended up talking for just over an hour, and it was probably the wildest conversation I've ever had, even though he did most of the talking.

The reason I am telling you this, is because you had mentioned in the "John Lear Tells All" interview that you have a copy of MATRIX V. Since I finished that book, I have always wondered how you feel about it. Now, I am not looking for any kind of "validation" for where I am from you, or anything like that. I know how I feel about the MATRIX V books, and I don't really give a shit what other people think about it, insofar as letting someone else's opinion of it effect mine. I have a couple friends who know about the MATRIX V set, but none of them have read it, so I've never really discussed the material with anyone. I've been reading this stuff for almost 2 years now, and I've gotta say that my life has changed pretty dramatically. So here are a few questions for you, in case you do decide to write me back, and I hope you do because I would really like to hear what you think about this stuff.

-Have you read at least the first volume of MATRIX V in it's entirety?
-If so, how do you feel about it?
-Have you done any work with Hemi-Sync, or anything with the Monroe Institute?
-How do you feel about "The Author's" info on the concepts of "Lightsiders", "Darksiders", and "Balance"?
-Have you experienced anything out of the ordinary that may be a result of reading MATRIX V?
-Have you read any of the later volumes of MATRIX V?

I would guess, that you probably don't get a whole lot of e-mails about MATRIX V, because it's not exactly "popular" in the alternative information circuit, if you know what I mean… It would be great to hear from you about this, truly. With all of that being said, now I can get to why I am choosing to e-mail you in the first place. This new interview with Peter Sterling.

I am very, very pleased that you put a disclaimer on this interview. It seems like you were very hesitant to post this interview, and I understand why. Or at least I think I do.

I love the work that both you and Bill have put out over the years. You guys down at Camelot have impacted my life in such a dramatic way, that I really don't know how to say thank you. I would not be where I am, as far as my understanding of myself, who I am, what I am, where I am, etc. if it were not for you guys. I would not have found the MATRIX books, which were instrumental in my progression of myself, if you guys would have never mentioned them. I truly thank you from the depths of my soul. You guys mean a lot to me. 

There are not many people who you guys have interviewed, that I didn't enjoy listening to. Patrick Geryl was one of them. Ironically, I started to read one of his books a couple years ago, and I hated it. I didn't even realize that he was the same guy, until he started talking about floating in boats in the middle of the ocean to try and save ourselves from a cataclysm in 2012. 

You guys had also, rightfully, placed a disclaimer on that interview as well. That shows that you guys do have integrity, and it shines through in you work. However, I DO NOT like to say something like this to you, AT ALL, but I think that the recent interview with this "Peter Sterling", may not be the best idea in the world. I told you what happened to me when I took ayahuasca. The only reason I did it, is because I heard someone talking about it in a book, and thought it might be "cool" to try. I know that a lot of younger people, mid-teens – early twenties, are starting to "wake up" and they watch your interviews. I am COMPLETELY for free speech, and freedom of thought, and all the rest of it, but I think that people like Peter Sterling, Daniel Pinchbeck, and others, are very irresponsible in the way they present this type of information, regarding the use of psychedelic substances. Teenagers like to experiment. Younger people in general like to experiment. Basically what I'm trying to articulate to you, (and I'm sure you can tell I'm choosing my words carefully here) is that there are people out in the world you might see this interview, and despite the fact that there is a disclaimer, they might want to try this stuff anyways. This is a dangerous area to be moving into, and I KNOW this from my own experiences. There are entities out there on the astral who just wait for people who can be easily manipulated, like me when I was 19, or like this Peter Sterling, and they just fuck with you! It doesn't take a fucking rocket scientist to figure that out! Think back to that entity who identified itself as "Mahavishnu" to me. What a joke! But there are people out there who have experiences like this, and they think that they are "chosen" or are "given a message for the world to hear" and take it totally seriously. This Peter Sterling is just another one of these people. If I, at 22 years old, have enough of an intellect to be able to figure that out, and this Peter Sterling (who I'm guessing is in his mid-30's) can't figure that out, it shows where he is spiritually and intellectually. He stated in his interview that this ayahuasca experience of his happened only 3 or 4 months prior to the interview, and I can tell he is just "in awe" of what happened to him and his experience with these "greys". He really believes that what these aliens were telling him was truthful, and maybe some of it was, but it is laced with lies.
There are natural ways to achieve out-of-body states, as I know you know, and people who engage in psychedelics are doing themselves a dis-service, as I did to myself. I have had experiences in other realms, without the use of these substances, which is why I don't use drugs anymore. Except for pot, and I know that is something I need to work on, and I consciously recognize that. But pot is practically harmless, and I was actually using it for medical reasons, believe it or not. Just three or four days ago I was diagnosed with a bacterial infection called H Pylori, which causes stomach ulcers and cancers. I may well have had it for over a year. I had to smoke pot to ease my nausea, and to boost my appetite and I never knew what was wrong with me. I was prescribed some anti-biotics and some other allopathic crap, and after three doses of this stuff it was causing me more problems than it was supposed to solve, and I knew it probably would but I tried it anyway just to see for myself. Luckily, I have my handy-dandy bottle of MMS, thanks to you guys and Jim Humble! I've been taking it for not even 24 hours and I am already feeling better. But anyway, I'm getting off track here…

I think you probably understand my point on the whole ayahuasca thing. But I think I have a couple more points to make before I conclude this message. It is my personal opinion that this whole new-age ayahuasca thing is something that is being intentionally allowed to be publicized because the "darkside" wants people to engage in this type of activity because it adds confusion to their life, gives them afalse sense of spiritual freedom, they share their experiences with others, and, as you know, the sheep follow the sheep. There are new-age sheep as well. Take a look at these pseudo-shamans in South America who want people to do this stuff, and look at the words they use in order to trick people into doing this. They say it's a "Medicine", an "Elixir"; they sugar-coat their sentences with words like this and people buy into this shit. As far as I'm concerned, and I'm not trying to insult the guy, Peter Sterling is just one more guy on a LONG list of people who believe the have a message for humanity that is somehow beneficial. Stating publicly that people need to "evacuate the planet" for 2012, and encouraging people to basically trust these aliens, get on that ship, get off the planet, etc. has the potential to have some consequences that are beyond serious. I can see it now…. the aliens come down and say, "Hey, we're here to "save" you all, come with us!" Then people trust them and go, but instead of being brought to a "Lush 5th density planet, made just for us", they are brought right back to the Orion system and become the P+45's, the P+52's,etc. I'm not saying that that is what I think will happen for sure, But it wouldn't surprise me. At all.

My destiny is here on Earth. If there is a cataclysm in 2012, I want to be HERE when the shit hits the fan. I KNOW that I am immortal. If my physical body dies in a disaster, boo fuckin' hoo. I could care less. I am actually really excited for whatever is to come, even if that involves the death of the physical. I see it all as an opportunity to take our lives in a brand new direction, and I can't wait. A lot of people in the alternative information circuit seem to have the impression that "our destiny is in the stars", and that implies that our destiny is confined to playing this 3rd density "game". It is my personal conclusion, based on my research and experiences, that our destiny is an another density. Despite my conclusions, I am not out there in the world sharing this with people; if they really wanted to know, they would have figured it out by now. And I am not trying to imply that I've got it all figured out or anything like that, but I feel that I know a whole hell of a lot more than most people in the world.

Although I didn't state it directly, one of my intentions in sending you this letter, is to hope that maybe you will consider pulling that interview. I really, really don't like the fact that I am asking you to consider removing an interview, because I think that it is important for people to be able to express their views and opinions and experiences, however I think that Project Camelot kicks way too much ass to have your reputation be effected just because this guy insists on you releasing his interview.

It is my personal opinion that if he feels the need to encourage drug use, trusting aliens who he doesn't even know, etc., he should do it on his own time on his own website. Project Camelot is becoming more and more well known by the day, and there are people out there in the world who are going to be looking to you guys for advice and information, and I would urge you to try and think about how hearing an interview with a guy like Peter Sterling might effect some people. Personally, I am glad I had my ayahuasca experience when I did, because now I am able to spot people like this very easily, and I know exactly where they are spiritually, because I've been there!

I have put my heart into this letter, Kerry, and have spent the better part of my afternoon doing so. As stated previously, I would really love to hear back from you regarding this letter. Remember my MATRIX V questions for you, as well. I know they were kind of in the middle of the letter, but that's all that I would really like to ask you about at this point. Everything else I wonder about just kind of comes throughout the course of your work. Even if you don't have the time to get back to me through e-mail, I hope you do take this as one of the biggest "Thanks!" I've ever given to anyone, despite the fact that I don't really like this new interview, or the potential it has to have an adverse effect on people. And, as stated previously, I can tell you were kind of hesitant about releasing that interview, with a good reason to be! I would just really hate to have some naive kid, who doesn't know any better get mixed up with a bunch of astral entities who are going to do nothing more than play games with them. I am not out there trying to "save the world" but I do care about the direction out planet goes. This time period in history is too damn important to be fucked up by people who have a "message for humanity" that has the potential to lead people in a direction that may not be the best thing for us.

If I didn't care about the planet, and the people here, and Project Camelot, I would not have taken 3 or 4 hours out of my day to write you this letter (I guess I type kind of slow). I hope you consider what I'm saying, and I hope to hear some feedback. I know you use something called "Skype" to chat with people. I have never used it, and I don't even know if it will work with my computer, but hey, if it's not too difficult to set up, maybe one of these days we can have a chat. We can talk MATRIX V, and the state of the world or whatever. If you want to that is! Take care, Kerry Cassidy! 

Take risks! (sound familiar?)
-T [name removed]

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Further Explanation regarding the Peter Sterling video

The recent release of the video interview with Peter Sterling is raising a lot of questions. This is a good thing. Please Click Hereto see my Further Explanation for the release of this video and some of the basis for why we do what we do at Project Camelot.

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